Expectations, dreams, hopes – we all have them, don’t we?
Especially when it comes to how we’re going to live our lives, how we’re going to find happiness and how we’re going to raise children, have a family and live with the love of our lives.
I – like everyone – had a lot of expectations when it comes to my life as a grown-up.
I was certain I’d find the perfect guy, be happily married and have 4 kids. This dream kept me going through my years of struggling with a massive eating disorder and going in and out of depression. This vision of my little family creating a home, a comfort place, a spot where we all belonged, kept me alive.
When I got married at 22 and reality kicked in, my vision of life “happily ever after” got blurry, but my expectation of having a family with the man I had married never changed.
However, as so often in life, everything turns out different than we think…
When I left my husband, I did so after years of struggling with my self-worth and myself. Marriage, I thought and still believe, is for the long haul. You don’t just run away. You stick with it, fight for it and don’t give up. [Read more…]